I've figured out what my problem with life is: I want mine to have greater meaning than the every day dullness of reality. The problem is that it seems that the every day simple things are what make up a life, with a few scattered moments of grandeur. I'd just like to have those moments last longer, and maybe even have more grandiouse times and boring/normal moments. Maybe the key is to find meaning in the small simple things, but I'd still like to make a huge difference in the world! I think I suffer from the West's unsatisfied searching for meaning. Maybe I should move to the East. If you've known me longer than a week, you'll know that this is my eternal answer. Moving somewhere else is always fun and exciting. I'm pretty much addicted, and the withdrawls of styaing on one place for two long years isn't much fun. So far I've looked into moving to San Diego, Alaska, Cedar City, and the Smokey Mountains. For some unknown reason, I'm still here in Orem, UT. Stuck among a million other Mormons who never want to leave the "Utah Valley Bubble."
I'm ready to bust through that bubble as soon as the timing is right... now can I? How about now? How much longer? Am I there yet? Since the prospects for marriage are slim to none, I might as well have a great time while I'm single right? I'm hoping that Heavenly Father will soon answer in the affirmative, then I can go trapsing through the world unfettered and unencumbered by mortgages and the idea of returning to school (I graduate in 4 days). I keep saying that Utah is a black hole that sucks you in and never lets you go. I really hope that's not going to be true for the rest of my life :D
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